When to give up?


Hi awak,

Thinking back our situation before. Most probably you already give up on me way back then. I probably left you behind before. You probably try to fix your broken heart but I chose to make it hard. You might want me to fight for us before this, but you were alone that time.

And hence, you gave up.

That may explained yourself.

Well, I guess I missed the train.

..............


Awak, saya just nak awak tahu yang I tried to fix it back.

Either you realized it or not, I'm not sure. But for past 3 months, I think I've got nothing from you. You actually kinda gave me closure by saying that

"sekarang ni saya boleh sayang awak sebagai kawan je. Xnak lebih daripada tu. Peluang untuk kita lebih daripada tu hampir tiada. Kasih sayang saya sekarang adalah sebagai kawan baik awak yang care pasal awak. Sori awak. Tapi saya tak boleh tipu diri saya dan diri awak. Saya doakan awak boleh move on dan cari yang terbaik untuk awak"- Z, 21/3/2020

I put this words because I want myself to remember how it broke my heart.
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Hmmm,

Awak, is it okay if I give up on us now? Like really, this time is for real? For real and real until the very end?


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