Time will solve the problem

Sometimes, the answer to a problem is actually time.
Time will solve everything.

Unfortunately, I am not that patience to begin with.
Neither do I think time will solve this problem.
Well at least, this is the impression I have now.

Forcing people to be ready when they are not, might be too cruel.
After all, it that goal fail, the blame will be on me.

As much as I try to understand, this fact hurts me. Quite bad.
I wish it never happen. I wish I can go back to the time where it all started. I wish I can erased it all. I wish I can undone things I did. Take back what I said.

But hey, there is no time machine. Past happened for reasons.

I am still looking for the reasons. I guess time will give me the reasons.
It just I am not too sure, how long time is needed.

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