The reason is simple


When we break our engagement, people sometimes said to me.

"You shouldn't be sad. A better person will be there for you"

Honestly, I still can't relate how is this helpful or comforting in any way.

I would thank you for all the pray but I believe that is something my future me will handle.
But now, I kinda stuck in my current me. Still sad and regretting this.

Some even ask me, why I want to get married in the first place? To those asking that, I would like to answer you with this , "FYI, some people (including me) have certain goal at certain timeline of our age"

And yes, I wish to get marry at age 28 years old. Well, before this at age 25 years old, but something happened, and I of course changed it accordingly. When I made the changes, of course I have to plan when should I start seeing someone for serious relationship. Because by logic, if you have aim, you have to draw it and execute it.

And when we agreed to be in serious relationship and at that age- suddenly it was cancelled, it literally means I have to start over again from zero one. Not only that, I also have to reverse.

Reverse means- I need time to reset my mind, my broken heart and dream
* I wish it will be a short time, but who knows exactly how long it will be*

After that, I need to set new goal and slowly gaining the momentum.

Now.... Let's think together : exactly how much time needed for this to happen?

Plot twist: if only to be broken again, can you imagine how redundant and sad this thing is

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